The pace at which the world is going. More on that later because its generic enough for me to remember.
(My) Short term memory:
All the times I am living my life, but without context. I get that that is why having goals are important to guide yourself at those moments. That’s why its important to have integrity and a personality. And I am malleable at most times.
Exercising is important because you won’t be this fit forever. And the reason we fail to act on it is because we’re reading those words without context. But the context you need is this: It is not going to be easy for your loved ones to take off time to take care of you. It’s not going to be easy for you when you get old and your body is paining, when you’re short of breath, when you’re hurt and tired and there are things to be done. That’s why its important to exercise. That’s why you need to take care of your body: it is one of the very few things that you can control.
Perhaps it has been ingrained in me, perhaps it’s something I’ve just absorbed through internalization. You do need to save for a rainy day. You need money for something that is going to last longer than the clothes your wearing or the shoes that give you oomph. Rich or comfortable or none of those… I believe its important to have control over your spending. Some control. Because money can get you a lot of things and you shouldn’t waste it away simply because you can.
There are books to buy. Places to go. Parents that I owe my life to, I will not abandon them in any goddamn way. Children to raise. Values to retain. To have some depth and forethought. To be you.
I am not completely ashamed of my shopping spree. I didn’t waste it away on crap, everything was decent. And I do not want to look like a slob.
Just because a person spouts their opinion at every turn does not mean that they are right. It is not right to pour money at something just because it is pretty. That is childishness.
I feel like its about time I take the plunge and start living life instead of hiding behind the gates. This is because I don’t want the real world to be forced upon me. I want to be ok in it. Personally it translates into go out more: to the bank, on walks with parents, to even bloody Mcdonalds instead of ordering in. Get used to the wide variety of people I see on the bus and not feel so surprised ( I used to do this before!). Give up your seat for elders. Get more uncomfortable.
To make special events SPECIAL. I want to try harder at this, simply because I really suck at it.
Also understood that I don’t need to sort people into those that I like and those that I don’t and then be borderline hostile to those that I don’t particularly like.